5th of July
Were we too soon? We should have had the time to build what we had. Because once it starts it can't ever happen again. If only we waited maybe we could have gone out in a bang. Was I too far? I couldn't get that bass feeling in my chest. That for me is not just apart of life without it I can't manage. You were always that for me, something others could live without but for me if I didn't have you I would spiral and find myself drinking to fill the void and on the floor the next afternoon. You may look great from afar, but you are one in the same with fireworks if I can't feel it, it isn't there. Will it ever be there, that feeling that makes you nervous like you have to embarrass yourself for their amusement. Mabey later I will realize that in doing this I am just digging myself a deeper hole. But for now I will watch you from afar and know in my bones that I can't ever get close enough to truly feel you, to get my fill. Do I even truly want that utterly n