XxolliexX's emo tangents

  5/30/25 10:20 pm  Sitting here doing nothing covered in sweat   I fell sticky and I smell like a cigarette  I could get up but I'm too lazy  It's been a day and I'm already crazy  I have no stimulation  I need to feel some motion   Someone get me some lotion   however many hours I've just been staring at my ceiling  It's been too long  just yanking on my schlong  I've lost all feeling   my brain needs some healing  I've got to get someone kneeling  Drag me from this chair  get me out of my lair  I have no motivation   It's turning into aggravation  I've got to get some air   Note.  Summer started yesterday and I'm already bored, I don't have the balls to call up my friends to hang out for some reason. I'm feeling manic and obviously this is about jorkin it and it's hot as fuck in my room cause the insulation sucks.   I've been listening to a ...

  I need you like a cigarette burning and sharp. I want to fill you like a cigarette entirely so deep that when I leave you can still feel me. I left my mark I've got all this tingling in my skull and but none in my fingers I need to feel you thinking just isn't enough I need you in my mouth your essence flowing through my veins and making my heart beat Your not like a drug, you are I know your bad for me but I love the way you hurt me I want to feel my alveoli bursting when I'm with you I want to be the smoke flowing off the curl of your mouth drifting up your face off your lashes and sticking to your hair you can't get me out and the smell will remind you I was there Then I will need you all over again 5/25/25 11:39 pm Note: This is about me craving a cigarette

  Am I the boy with no heart? I can't fall in love, I've yet to try but I assume that's not something that you need to try to do. I thought oh as soon as they start using my name in a sentence it's over. But it's not. Every time I imagine it it's grey. I want to be the smoke drifting off the curl of you lips but I can't stand the smell. I want to be the sheets on your bed, dirty and a bit darker than when I was first bought, thrown on right after buying, you were too excited to wash me. I have a bit of a sour smell from accumulated sweat but your used to it. Throw me out or wash me.  I could just be a symptom of romanticism holding it out for the perfect person but never being content. I'm just an under confident egoist. Note: I was just checking LJ and saw I had a draft (it was up to "But it's not") this is sort of true (I lied about disliking the smell of cigarettes)I feel like I can't fall in love but i also want to, its probably som...