I Need You Like A Cigarette

 I need you like a cigarette

burning and sharp.

I want to fill you like a cigarette

entirely so deep that when I leave you can still feel me.

I left my mark

I've got all this tingling in my skull and but none in my fingers

I need to feel you thinking just isn't enough

I need you in my mouth your essence flowing through my veins and making my heart beat

Your not like a drug, you are

I know your bad for me but I love the way you hurt me

I want to feel my alveoli bursting when I'm with you

I want to be the smoke flowing off the curl of your mouth

drifting up your face off your lashes and sticking to your hair

you can't get me out and the smell will remind you I was there

Then I will need you all over again

5/25/25 11:39 pm

Note: This is about me craving a cigarette


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