The Biggest Mistakes Will Follow You To The Grave

 6/6/25 10:50pm

There's a film around everything, it sits in the air thick and sour and it clogs my throat 

It stays in the air forever once it's there the fragments will always remain no matter what you do to clear it

Just how you can tell if someone smokes by the way their house smells and how it will haunt whoever lives there next

The smallest mistakes will always follow you for generations 

But the biggest will follow you to the grave

You were doomed from the start but told to be better

You crave but don't know what

Your quick to hit but quicker to be hit

you never start it but you sure as shit escalate it further than it should be

Grappling for a cure to an ailment you don't know

Your pulling and pulling and pulling yourself down

Stop while you still can


Note. I started this out with the same opener as my last "work" because it was stupid and I felt I could make a better version so what was once about boredom and jacking off turned into Fetal alcohol syndrome/ crack baby and how ancestors mental health can effect their descendants. So similar I know (sarcasm)

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