long nights

 

long nights

long nights filled with the absence of you are what I long for. the feeling of being able to do what I want, be who I need, and be young (not) living my best life. the sunsets are more intricate without you here able to focus on my own thoughts rather that yours (about me) I can't live like this forever if 'I spend too much time in my mind I will find I have lost it' hoping for you to be there. Endless nights spent trying to be silent while the others sleep yet not caring who hears the sounds you make. 


P.s To be honest I'm talking about my boom box in part of this

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